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Name: Brandi
Bday: 12/27
Age: 17
Current works: A HP story, and my fiction, Siog.

I'm So Tired.

Mon Oct 26, 2009, 6:58 PM
This weekend my boyfriend (my future hubby... I'm serious, we're planning on getting married after he graduates college and has a job) went to college. We took him up there. He's four hours away, when driving, but I can't drive and he doesn't have a license. He'll only be down on holidays.

The good byes were depressing. It started with his dad, then his cousin (they're like brothers, they grew up together), his mom and I were last to start the tear fest. I looked away. I hate people seeing me cry. Joshua hugged his dad, who was saying, "I'm proud of you." Pause. "Glad you made it to college." Pause.

Then Joshua said, "Are you crying, Dad?"

Sheri laughed, Shawn ran off, obviously crying. I was looking away, but laughed shakily.

Joshua came to me and hugged me, and I instantly started crying. He rubbed my back, and said it would be okay. That he would be back in a week. But that meant, still means, nothing to me. He's gone.

But then he hugged Shawn (his cousin), then his mom (Sheri). I still looked away, crying. After he hugged his mom, he came back to me, sobbing now. Ironically, I was crying (wanting him to comfort), but I found myself comforting him by messing with his hair. It killed me to see him sob.

We kissed a few times, and I sat in the car and tried not to cry anymore. But I couldn't stop. I watched him and his mom hug outside my door, both crying. After a few minutes Joshua pulled away, a tear rolled down his cheek (the one I could see). And I had the impulse to open the door and comfort him. But I didn't have the strength. I felt the sudden exhaustion of the weekend, and the crying.

Then we had to watch him walk back alone. It was painful. The car was quiet. I was lonely. I couldn't focus. I was emotionally numb. Today was bad. We went to school together. I saw him everywhere.

I miss him. I miss seeing him waiting behind that gate. I miss holding his hand. I miss kissing him. I miss playing with his hair. But most of all, I miss him holding me in his arms.

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  • Current Residence: Fresno, CA
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  • Interests: Writing, anime, manga, friends
  • Favourite movie: Pirates of the Carribean/II/III
  • Favourite band or musician: Bon Jovi
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
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  • Favourite poet or writer: JK Rowling
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  • Favourite cartoon character: Tohru Honda and Kagome Higurashi
  • Personal Quote: Nyah~
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:iconblazikensweety:
*blazikensweety Dec 27, 2009, 1:01:23 PM
WHY DID YOU NOT TELL ME IT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY? D:<
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~aidenoffire Dec 29, 2009, 9:59:50 AM
Idk... Slipped from my mind? Lol

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Sweet until it sinks in...
The forbidden fruit, love.
Everyone picks a few from the tree of life,
I just happened to have picked a sour one.
© Aidenoffire, The Forbidden Fruit
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~naetoru Dec 27, 2009, 9:25:54 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY <333333 :tighthug:

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Everybody says that I've gotta get a grip,
But I let sanity give me the slip~
Pokemon Senko :pokeball:
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~aidenoffire Dec 29, 2009, 9:59:59 AM
Ty~! :) I LOVE THE PICCY!!

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Sweet until it sinks in...
The forbidden fruit, love.
Everyone picks a few from the tree of life,
I just happened to have picked a sour one.
© Aidenoffire, The Forbidden Fruit
:iconnaetoru:
~naetoru Dec 27, 2009, 12:54:21 PM
[link] FOR YOU <3

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Everybody says that I've gotta get a grip,
But I let sanity give me the slip~
Pokemon Senko :pokeball:
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*blazikensweety Nov 4, 2009, 3:37:00 PM
Wyoop.
C'est Blazi. o3o
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~pandaNH4 Sep 5, 2009, 7:48:25 AM
Hey hey. Haven't talked to you in a long time. Whats up?

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Oh...its you....
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~aidenoffire Sep 5, 2009, 10:11:20 AM
Not much! High school, life, bf xD that stuff. You?

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Sweet until it sinks in...
The forbidden fruit, love.
Everyone picks a few from the tree of life,
I just happened to have picked a sour one.
© Aidenoffire, The Forbidden Fruit
:iconpandanh4:
~pandaNH4 Sep 8, 2009, 6:57:17 PM
College, surviving work, and college. lol

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Oh...its you....
:iconaidenoffire:
~aidenoffire Sep 8, 2009, 7:42:56 PM
That sounds like life lol :D

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Sweet until it sinks in...
The forbidden fruit, love.
Everyone picks a few from the tree of life,
I just happened to have picked a sour one.
© Aidenoffire, The Forbidden Fruit
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